Corrupts my brain, it does, day and night with this longing deep in my bones, its almost like an ache if I don't have it.
Want, want, want I try to resist this echo in my head that tells me to give in, to give up, to let go and just roll with the flow, but it is destroying me inside, it is eating me alive and I know in my heart I have to let go.
No one knows so I don't have anyone to ask for advice but I know its wrong to want something so badly but know that it can rip me apart at the same time.
If I had a choice I could probably let go of this unhealthy....desire I'll say, yea desire because I don't want to call it what it really is. I can let go if I really want to....
No that's not true I am just as much a slave to this want as anyone can be. If someone knew would I be judged.
I don't want to be that person that looses themselves to something that people like to call a disease. I really do want to let go but I am stuck.
I am stuck with this echo in my head, with this wanting in my chest, with this desire in my being, with this heat in my veins, with this ....well I will just call it what it is....Addiction.
