Set me Free
He never loved me he only pretended that I meant something to him and at the end of the day when reality actually sets in I'm forced to feel the pain in my rib cage, using liquid courage to try and numb the ache deep inside like an itch that just cant be scratched, hurting only me down to the depth of despair I fall and crumble because if there is no love then what is there?
Set me free
Because I live in a world where tainted souls vie for your affection and attention so that the enemy can set up stones and blocks where your enemies can hurl hateful words that damage your soul causing hollow grooves in your heart like a thousand year old oak tree that has been subjected to constant abuse and misuse on a daily basis.
Set me free
Broken spirit, lost and confused but I am more than the light that has diminished in myself despite what has been told to me from generations of ancestors whose worth was only valued by how strong their backs were and what they could do for a penny on the corner, no sense of worth, I am the generation that fought to keep hope alive but buried deep in the earth of misfortune that has followed me around like an all consuming plague.
Set me free
How sickening and delusional to think this is what love is when minced words and double meanings are all that are relayed to my ears and the deafening sounds of daily heartbreak are making my ear drums bleed like a cut artery, let's be honest you never cared and you never will, now I can see through your false hopes and your lead me on words.
Set me free
I am not to be used as if I were some random toy from your 1980"s box of horrors in the corner waiting my turn to feel relevant in the life of the likes of you as if you can read the desperation in my eyes shining words like, pity me, I must need false love and fake words of praise and meaningless tokens of affection that were initially meant for the other who had the good sense to walk away.
Set me free
I have been a prisoner of my thoughts for too long, a slave of the most vivid imagination equipped with bright lights and scenes from throughout my life that should never be replayed, see all they do is remind me that I am among the dead souls that roam the earth, scaring me with the intense thoughts to just end it all and avoid everything that ever made me feel anything.
Set me free
We all burn into the heart of the world with greatness within and the strength to overcome any obstacle put before us but powers of persuasion can not convenience me that this is my destiny to be stoned as they did BC or to be hanged as they did AD when prayers fell from desperate lips as the gavel fell upon them with final minutes, so completely ending existence.
Set me free
Whips and chains have wrapped me so tightly bound as if duck tape has been pushed against lips of freedom, ringing in the ears of the souls lost in battle for a country that would not fight for them now or ever, as if their struggle to remain normal was nothing more than an obstacle that had to be overcome and I stand with this struggle as my own hoping for the slightest leniency in the bounds that have me gagged.
Set me free
You are not my keeper and I will not be told what to do as if I am some child that continues to need guidance into the early adult years, I am my own person with an opinion, with options, with rights, with speech, speaking that which is not into existence.
Set me free
I will not bargain with the devil, I will not give my soul for the chance to have my spirit free from all the pain and drama and suffering and bad thoughts and memories and turmoil that I have experienced but I will pray on my knees and kneel before the alter and send hope to my soul that one day these experiences will no longer threaten the life it belongs to.
