Lord help me!

I can hear my heart crying out to the lord to save me from the ignorance that people bring into my life with unnecessary drama.

Hurt, depression, sadness, God never told me that living for him could be so hard but they didn't like Jesus, Gods only son, what makes me think they will

like me.

Here I am, loving God, hating life, wishing that I could live someone else's life and leave mine, I'm not happy with me anymore.

So I write because this is how I free myself from the day to day pain and to let that load fall off my shoulders with each word I write.

Can someone help me understand how sentences from lips can break a heart so slowly till there is no heart left or its hard as rocks and there is no more feeling in my soul.

I am empty and devoid of all reason and i am left with only hate and that's what the devil wants and with this struggle i cant give him the victory.

I want God to have the victory in my life i want to cry out you cant win like MJ in The Wiz till my lungs and vocal cords are sore from constant exertion of emotions.

My prayer will be, when i have the strength to say what I want from God, Lord please give me the strength to not care what anyone says about me, to me, around me.

Show me that the only thing that matters is what you think of me and my walk with you and provide me with the guidance to know when to fight for my sanity and when to let go.

I would end that prayer with a Hallelujah and Amen, praise God and thanks again.

I will be OK despite all of my pain and heartache as long as he stays by my side.