In Time

In a world so filled with sadness and pain I find that I have been feeling sorry for myself and the problems that I am going through despite all that is going on around me in the world. I have never been a selfish person I dont feel I ever will be but right now that is what I am being. I started on a new poem that has something to do with those feeling but I couldnt finish it because I couldnt stop crying. I want to remember that even though I am feeling some pain its not half as bad as what most people are going through right now because I have a roof over my head and food to eat and even a car. Yet I have this extreme sadness inside me that everytime I start to say what I'm feeling the tears are there and I have to stop them because crying never did anyone any good. So I canceled my facebook and I canceled my twitter and I turned off my phone so that I can gain some perspective. I need to go to God with my pain but its been so long since we last talked things just dont feel the same. This is the one thing I will keep because realistically poetry keeps me from killing myself. It's my only outlet. So once I am able to finish my poem it will be here for the time being I will try to heal my soul and my heart somehow so that I can get back to being happy me. Ha its been so long since I seen her I forgot what she looks like but I figure eventually she will show up again. Right???