Thursday, November 15, 2012

Intimacy



Come sit next to me, I love sitting by the fire place where the warmth cuddles you like your favorite blanket, I want to feel close to you at this moment.

You belong to me in this moment as our eyes lock and declare all the things we refuse to let fall from our lips, I crave this intimacy.

I want us to speak of our past lives, to reminisce about the times when we were meant to be but could not and how we traveled to this time and this moment just so we could have this conversation

Remind me why when our bodies lock I hear a sudden click in my ears telling me the untold truth of a love so forbidden it could only be established at this time , I need this intimacy.

Caress my face as we talk without words as if the language we are meant to speak exists no more and each caress says what you can not. 

Talk to me about your life, tell me all of your secrets because there is no doubt in my mind that I will tell you all of mine, rest your head on my thigh as you speak of triumphs and disappoints.

Relay to me your dreams, I want to know every crack that I can fill with a kiss, I need to know of every pain I can sooth with a hug.

I crave this intimacy just as I crave you throughout time to infinity, I want to know the history of your ancestors, I want to dream of your great great great grandmother so that I can thank her for guiding you to me.

Speak to me of our future, what you want from me as your wife, as the vessel for your children, as your life mate or soul mate.

Converse with me as I gently rub your head and pull your ear, I want to feel your voice vibrate through me, I want to feel your love, speak to me of how you crave me as I fall asleep to the sound of your voice .

I crave intimacy, your intimacy and I want to remember you, just you, for my future lives to come.

Thursday, July 19, 2012

Insomnia

💤👀 So I'm having one of my notorious sleepless nights. I guess I have a lot on my mind. I mean I feel like I have to peel my eye lids off my cheeks but my brain won't shut down so I'm awake. I tried talking to God but that didn't last long. I think what is really bothering me is some things that happened to me today. For one I heard a knock on my door. I say yea yea I'm up thinking it must be my mom but when I ask her about it this morning she says it wasn't her. Okaaaaay. Then I'm watching the baby and I'm in the kitchen washing dishes and I look at the clock on the wall which is usually a dingy brown and it looks like its glowing. Am I knocking at deaths door? Is my time running short? Have I done what I was put here to do or has someone else taken my job? All of these things are running through my mind as well as sexual frustration and maybe too much caffeine. I know that being normal is overrated but I wish that when I layed down I could just shut it off. With my ex I never had a problem getting to sleep. Anyway our communication sucked and he ended with sleeping with a friend. Men! I should be able to just go to sleep, instead I'm up writing and thinking about anything that will cross my mind. I hope everyone else is getting a good nights sleep, it's essential for success.