Insomnia

💤👀 So I'm having one of my notorious sleepless nights. I guess I have a lot on my mind. I mean I feel like I have to peel my eye lids off my cheeks but my brain won't shut down so I'm awake. I tried talking to God but that didn't last long. I think what is really bothering me is some things that happened to me today. For one I heard a knock on my door. I say yea yea I'm up thinking it must be my mom but when I ask her about it this morning she says it wasn't her. Okaaaaay. Then I'm watching the baby and I'm in the kitchen washing dishes and I look at the clock on the wall which is usually a dingy brown and it looks like its glowing. Am I knocking at deaths door? Is my time running short? Have I done what I was put here to do or has someone else taken my job? All of these things are running through my mind as well as sexual frustration and maybe too much caffeine. I know that being normal is overrated but I wish that when I layed down I could just shut it off. With my ex I never had a problem getting to sleep. Anyway our communication sucked and he ended with sleeping with a friend. Men! I should be able to just go to sleep, instead I'm up writing and thinking about anything that will cross my mind. I hope everyone else is getting a good nights sleep, it's essential for success.